Jonnix Simplicity

how do u love someone?
Who did u the most hurt and treat as if nth happen..
How do u love someone who keep making a distance from u?
wat make one stronger pull one down even stronger..

wat is experience? by enduring the past and keeping on with the future?
wat is pain? by enduring experiences?
wat is happiness? by planting sadness into others?
wat is mischievous? doing silly stuff for entertainment?
wat is entertainment? by making oneself a fool to put one stupid smile on others?
how can human be so irresponsibly irresponsible for doing such thing?
why are them so selfish? for their own benefits

every living things have feelings and can feel pain, but every ppl have the rites to cause pain too? why is this so?
democratic? peace? why i don feel any..
who will be the one feeling me, and who will be the ones tat i am feeling for??

the new blogger fish big..so complex and complicated

You're all I ever wanted...

You all are busying, indeed I seems free as I didn't study.. exam starting this friday and tat mark the end of this sem.. I won be scoring or getting good grade.. Or maybe it is just an excuse.. but nvm.. life is just too tough for me.. although I seems happy go lucky at times.. but trust me,I ain't feeling any good or anything like tat.. I don need anyone, it just a lie, I will die without them but who will know?

You're all I ever wanted...

I have been through lot of craps, my life is unpredictable for u all to judge..

Don say U have gone through more hurt and all those crap,

U never know there is such a person suffering more than u ever notices..

U only think u are at ur worst, at the bringe of everything bad..

I don wish to share my story, neither do wsh to say abt my life

I merely wanted someone who really will be there for me care for me

Be there when iam lonely when I am down..

Guess wat, there is only 1.. I am really touched.. I can't say tat she is my everything.

But can say her care is beyond any one of my so called bro or sis, I really appreciates it and wish to thanks her.. indeed she is noT any off my kins or sis, I can say she is my best fren ,pal and company though we didn't really met up often or anything of the sort.. we were not even classmate or anything of the sort.. I can say we are still stranger, an online gal which I met online.. but she is the only one who is there though she was late.. but so wat, this Isn't wat the people I trusted most and closest to show.. I don know how to put her action to words..

I am really lonely and unwanted.. I am not even compared to others, I am not being respected and all, but all of these need to admit.. I really need someone to care,I am really very hurt.. it is not tat I am being emotional or anything, but instead is I can't control. the person whom I can't let go and love all these while don even know anything of me.. she just see the nasty and angry, harsh and rusH part of me.. she can't feel me.. she don even know like her or even if she knows she don even really care or think abt it.. I don know how much more I can endure.. I dn know when I will fall.. I don know anything abt relationship.. I don know how to make ppl happy..

All I knows was cry, cry,cry and cry.. sad and hurt so wat?? who will understand.. I always have to lock myself in a corner crying trying my best not to disappoint anyone or let anyone see the weak side of me.. who willl know my stress and hurt.. they just see me as a happy go lucky chap who always hang around slacking and doing nothing useful in their presence.. I don even have the courage to face ppl with my true self, don even have the mood to do anything for myself.- am really worry.. really afraid of loneliness..

I don wish to say anymore.. i don think there even will be any viewer.. my life is just like this.. with no ppl entering and stay.. but I still need to thanks everyone who once is my fren..

So ya till then..............................................

You're all I ever wanted...

finally all projects are down and submitted. i can only hope for pass now. hais
net fund, telsis, and math main exam coming le.. sian
hope it is gonna be easy. i failed so many netfund quiz,
it not i don know how to do, but i don know why
i just fail badly. no more a for emaths2, no more A for netfund,
i can only drill myself hard in telsis hoping for an A there.
if not my gpa will suffer max.

i find tat i having insomia, if not then is slp a lot.. life sucks
i bake muffins/cupcakes today. the weird thing is it didnt black out even once today..
but it seems like it takes forever to cook as i go lower than the temp of wat is suppose to be heated at
the oven is spoiled, the heating coil won turn red.
so gonna get a new oven at the end of the month.

baked those is because of her, i dk why but i am confuse
i treat her as a sis only but ya loves intention sparkle at times.
she is sick, i guess it is because of a heavy heart and work load plus stress to handle
thus weakening her already weak body and hence she fall sick.
idk why i will really go make water for her, i have never made anything for anyone
she is the one where i make over again, it is more than the first time..
maybe it is she giving me the confidence in doing all of those silly things
however she won be having the drink tat i made for the very first time i make drink
but nvm, guess she doesnt like milk after all..
i may be harsh on words but i don mean bad.
i really do care for her although i am hard on my words.
i know she is facing with problems from her bf and even her "parents" and work problems
i cant do anything too or take over her life and help her do it.. i am useless guy
i just hope she will be happy and content with wat i did for her.
but i don think she will understand or appreciate it.
it don really matter though.. from here i wish her luck and happiness.. silly girl hais

*words of advice, take things easy and face it calmly even at the most shittiest moment u have even been.

hopefully she don reads this. :'(

You're all I ever wanted...

it is so tiring.. These few project and all help out at all with my insomia.. instead it worsen it..

I don rally have time for blogging too.. lol..

Haha.. sarah, do not severely underestimate me in baking even when my electric oven spoils..

I still can produce good cookie or cupcake.. :-p

Haha tat all for baking for the time being till gotten a new oven

Will be continuing at the end of the month..

My house blackout twice sia when baking with the screwed up oven..

And use oven toaster to bake -.-

Screw up..

But it still taste not bad..

Haha don u agree baka sis, alicia.. muhahaha..

Anyways enjoy ba :) it is really bakke myself de haha no problem ah haha

You're all I ever wanted...

bored.. yesterday shag max..
the whole of yesterday was shitty all along..
wake up here pain there pain, flu and everything
and only one person texted me yesterday.. :(
work so nua so tired.. and whole 8hour + no network..
reached home so tired and nua don even feel like bathing
but end up bathing and text for a while..
after midnite still have text others but i start the conver too hais
my phone really can throw away le no fren will even text me de lor
everytime i text them first..
hais, nvm :(

i read ur blog and feel sorry for u, sorry for teasing u furthermore from there
every ppl will reach their obstacles on/in something
if they cant overcome it then tat the end of them,
no matter how sad or even when u cry a river over it also won help..
it is not i cant view u, but i just wan to encourage u but in a negative way
u may choose to hate me or anything, but tat is the way of me doing stuff
anyways don keep fall sick..
high metabolism rate is cool and a bit hard to maintain too
as no matter how u eat u won grow ma, rite?
those thing u eat will get convered to fat eventually, which is not healthy
mind wat u eat and if can drink more plain water and rest more,
tat will just help.. exercise was a bonus too.. :)
so ya good luck in ur health and life
heard ur bf ignores u becoz u don wan take medi..
so wat if u went to see doc and let the matter rest.. cant be too stubborn at times,
must eat medi, don let the money u invested in ur health make ur health and body worst mah
so ting hua lah.. and find some time for ur bf tml bah and make it a blast even if it is just for an hour or so..
anyways jy and have a blast :)

You're all I ever wanted...

ya this blog is dead i don wish for any commotion to go around too,
it is very troublesome,
and as u all can see from the title which is simplicity
and from the url which is die of boredness
it is really a screw up and boring blog so ya..
not worth wasting the time to go through or read it ya?

11/2 work..
tiring but ya got headache once reach home
work was boring and sucks somehow..
it screwed up too..
a lot customer.. hais
shortage of 3.80 sian..
but nvm

end of the day

You're all I ever wanted...